The Desires of My Redeemed Heart

"Please be with the marriages in this church. Be with the men. Make them fathers who selflessly lead their families with wisdom and love. And be with the mothers as they teach their children. Bless their patience and help them as they serve in their homes. Bless the children, keep them in your care that they will grow to love you. And be with the singles and give them the desires of their hearts. Amen."

The desires of their hearts.

Hmmm.

What does that even mean? I hear people pray like this often and I always wonder what that prayer translates into. Has anyone ever stopped and asked a single person what the desires of his/her heart are? Or do we simply assume that the only desire a single person has is to be married and have a family? I can't speak for all singles but I wouldn't be surprised if for many that doesn't make it into the list of "top five desires". I'm sure, just as we are all made different but equal, that our desires vary from one person to another. However, here are a few of mine.

1. To be beautiful in God's sight as I live before His face

2. Forgiveness for failing Him all the time

3. To be content with the fact that the King of the universe is the Lover of my soul and Keeper of my heart.

4. To always have a gracious answer flowing from a gracious heart

5. To live life to the fullest as I run to heaven

Yes, it can be hard to keep perspective. Yes, there is a hole in my heart labeled "husband" and another with "family" but those holes are always and ever being filled with the love of Jesus. There is never a day when His grace and love are not sufficient for my needs. What more could I desire than to be wholly His?

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